year 42

Aah, here I am at year 42 of my life. So much has happened since the beginning of 2016. Most I can’t even fathom, but it’s here in my now. I need to  be strong and patient. I know these are blessings in disguise and that someday I will be grateful for the pain.

I started reading this book called Desire Map by Danielle Laporte  and it got me thinking, which got me reflecting these past days to focus on me. What do I want? What do I need? and most importantly, How do I want to feel? everyday when I wake up, in the middle of the day,  when I go to bed, after every meal, after running errands how do I always want to feel? How do I make it happen? So here’s what I came up with… kind of like a new year’s resolution if you will or life mission statement. I’ve only scratched the surface and I still need to do a lot of digging and a deep dive in my soul. I’m not getting any younger and it’s time I need to start putting myself first. I feel I just began my journey through self-discovery. Surely it will be a bumpy journey, but it will be well worth it.

All meaningful and lasting change starts on the inside and works it’s way outward.


so long forty-one


This is a time for reflection as well as celebration. As you look back on the past year and all that has taken place in your life,

Remember each experience for the good that has come of it and for the knowledge you have gained.

Remember the efforts you have made and the goals you have reached.

Remember the love you have shared and the happiness you have brought.

Remember the laughter, the joy, the hard work, and the tears.

And as you reflect on the past year, also be thinking of the new one to come.

Because most importantly, this is a time for new beginnings and celebration of life.

-Taylor Addison, Blue Mountain Arts, 1989

Thanks for the wild ride! I’ve had my ups and downs, laughter and tears, joys and sorrows. I have created memories that will forever be cherished and learned some life lessons that will always be remembered. I am grateful for the experiences but now it’s time to make new ones. It’s time to try new things, and go on new adventures. Birthday is a time for new beginnings.

Here’s to forty-two!